A lot have been going on this week...
Too many in fact...
My life is like a roller coaster this week...
Well, not exactly...
More downs than ups....
Been too busy lately....
Emotionally unstable as well...
Maybe from my face, you see that I'm quite carefree...
But no one knows what's going on in my mind....
No one knows what my heart is thinking...
I feel this world is full of people who are prejudice towards me...
Week 4.... Definitely not a good week for me..
I don't wanna say much anymore...
All this sad stuff is making my feelings more numb...
I wanna cry... But I can't...
I wanna laugh.. But I can't..
I can smile... But it seems very fake...
If my really really good friends can see what I'm writing right now, I'm sure they will know what is happening in my life right now...
Life must go on...
But it won't be as easy as before..
I don't really know whether this is life...
My life before was full of fun and happiness..
But now, it's dull and sad...
What is going on??
I know that I made mistakes before...
But this is really not the time to really put me down like this...
I even feel my friends here.... Are not my friends...
I feel like they're trying to push me away..
I think I need to be with my old friends way back in high school...
I really feel happy with them..
As for now, my feelings are really numb...
I can say that I completely lost my feelings...
What has cut my heart will never heal...
The cut will remain open forever...

Time seems to be passing by very fast...
It's already the end of week 3...
Another 5-6 weeks and I'll be back in Sandakan...
It's starting to get busy...
Assignments, projects, presentations...
All coming at once...
Stress level mounting up really high...
I just handed CS122 assignment yesterday...
Now I have to complete CS133 lab assignment by Monday....
Then have to do documentation for CS122 group project...
Stress... Stress.... Stress....
What to do...
Short semester is like that...
I just hope that I pass both subjects..
I don't wanna repeat anymore....
Very stress...
Sigh....
The week after week 4 is holiday....
Still no plans till now....
I dunno about my friends here...
The genting trip is being left aside for now...
I hope that there will be something interesting to do during the week long break...
Maybve try to find some of my high school friends and hang out together...
It's been quite a long time since I last saw them...
LOL...
Been downloading a lot of movies...
Especially the cantonese series...
You guys ever heard of Moonlight Resonance??
Hahaha...
I've downloaded till episode 37.. I think...
Hahaha...
I support college's DC++ software....
Gotta stop here...
Need to continue with my lab assignment...
Chiaozzz...

This is the end of Week 2..
Another 2 weeks and there will be a week break for short semester students...
Although its only week2, but the stress level is mounting up very high...
1st week of class already give assignment to do...
Then this week give the group project...
Think we all bionic robots ahh??
I'm human laaa...
Multi tasking also need time de ahhh...
The 1st assignment also not yet complete, give group project...
MCB...
This is one of the reasons why I didn't wanna come to KL....
Coz this sem is short sem...
Time is damn limited...
The subjects are long semester subjects...
Long semester subjects on a short semester...
Quite unfair laaa..
Damn...
I hate it here...
Everything is a rush...
Rush rush rush....
Come on laa...
I need time to calm down also...
This weekend will be very lonely...
Coz my friends all not staying in hostel...
I think only me alone here...
Haih...

So far...
It kinda sucked...
It's my 2nd day here..
I just finished my 8am class...
And the weather isn't helping...
So bloody dull..
I miss KK..
I miss Sandakan...
I miss home...
I miss my parents...
I miss my baby...
2 months please fly quickly...
I wanna go home...
T.T

Around week 5, we have a week's break...
If I was in KK, I was sure to go back home...
But now that I'm in KL, I don't think I can do so...
Damn...
Haih...
Damn sucky life now...
I can't wait for it to end....